One of the beauties of ultrarunning and I guess life is that you live and learn. And they say you learn as much of not more from failure than success. And I think I agree.
Yesterday was the run “over the other side” for a 40 odd mile run along the south west coastal path in Devon. It was all planned, I had my friend Claire as my support crew, the two dogs were going to spend the day traveling with her to various support points. All that could go wrong would be my legs giving up, or I could fall off a cliff or something.
The landscape was beautiful and so much fun to run through. As I had never been there before it was like exploring as I went. The photos below really don’t capture the scene.
I set off around seven and was in a groove much sooner than I expected. I was expecting hilly and I certainly got hilly, with a mix of long drawn out drags and really steep stuff. It was all technical and I was loving all of it. I was alternating between shirtless down in the wooded valleys and a waterproof jacket up on the highest hills as it was drizzling up there.
Then the derail began. Not with the legs, not the heart or the head but upon reaching combe martin to meet Claire and pick up more food and water it was clear murph was an unhappy dog. He’s been on crew before and was fine but yesterday he wanted none of it. He was crying and whining all morning while I was gone. He was barking at people when parked up. He is a nervous dog because of his rescue past and it displays in ferocious displays of false bravado which to the outside world can be quite intimidating and frightening.
I continued on and at the next stop they met me on the path so he was happy to be away from people but as I stocked up and then moved on his crying broke my heart. Suddenly the joy of running where I was became joyless. I turned it all over through the next section which as it turned out got me near halfway. This was because Claire couldn’t get the van near enough the path which stressed her further. I was oblivious as there is no mobile signal. It seemed like a long leg but as I pulled into the next stop I could hear murph barking before I saw him and the decision was made. It was over there and then
The time to think on the last leg brought me to the only possible conclusion. I could continue in my own world and selfishly push for the 40 mile achievement I wanted so badly but only at the cost of the happiness of the others.
It was a no brainer. I checked how they all were and climbed in the back with the dogs and called it a day. I’m not going to lie it was disappointing. I was having the day of my life as far as running goes. It was all clicking along. I had a few back issues with the downhills but not enough to stop things. I was driving the uphills hard, too hard perhaps and who knows if the wheels would have fallen off eventually. It doesn’t matter because in the end it turned out not to be a day about running. Ultrarunning is about making decisions, hundreds of tiny decisions throughout the day all leading to success or failure.
In the end I only had to make one decision yesterday. And even if today I feel like a failure I know deep down making the right decision was the only way to really win.
The view the night before – “see those in the distance? I bet I have to run up those” Of course I did 
Dawn looking back over Ilfracombe 
View towards Waterford 
Waterford harbour 
Approaching Little Hangman 
Some cliffs somewhere 
That way – They have done a great job on signposting the path. 
Up there – Now thats a longass uphill drag 
But when you’re up there its great 
Cairn on Great Hangman 
The drizzle is coming in 
Another valley 
Oh look thats nice, a vertical path to get out of the valley! 
Those dots in the path are the support crew! 
Every drop was steep 
Looking back 
Looking forward – thats the path cutting halfway up the opposite hill – another longass drag! 
But always worth it 
Ummmm yeah – the correct path was actually new Zealand 
Just run out of water and wouldnt you know your luck… 
And this is where it ends 
Fierce van guardians making sure anyone parking within 20 yards knew about them
Blue Green Gold Grey, Awyr Maes Tywod Aarreg 
You made a decision you’ll never regret. Well done, you win in the game of life!
Gorgeous route. I sympathize with your disappointment. Yet the route will always be there, waiting for your next attempt.
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Thankyou and. You’re right it’s not a decision I regret for a minute. Those guys gave up hours to just help me and only now I’m realising how blessed I am for being given that chance
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